When Your Calling Is Hard
I don't know about you, but I sometimes feel like my calling should be easy. God has been leading. Doors were opening at one time. I was faithful and obedient. Shouldn't it all come together?
I reflected on this after I had cried through my entire lunch with a friend. She's been a friend who has walked with me through my journey. From volunteering at our local church to working in church ministry to leaving that church job to start a business of my own - this friend has been with me the entire way.
When you're ready to give up
When was the last time you've felt like giving up? Was it when the stress was building and you felt like you were going to lose it? Maybe your bills were piling up and you wondered if you should give up on a dream and just be practical? Or maybe the thought of disappointing those you love?
That day at lunch, I felt like giving up. I was coming to the end of my rope. Finances were beyond tight. I was stressed out from juggling part-time jobs and bills all while trying to be creative to build a business. I had run out of ideas. And quite frankly, I had run out of confidence in God and me together on this journey.
Everybody needs a warrior or two...
I've written about this before - but everyone of us needs a circle of support. Everyone of us needs people in our lives who will remind us to keep going. We need people who will encourage us, speak truth to us and remind us who God made us to be. Everyone of us needs a warrior friend who won't give up on us when we're trying to give up on our journey.
That day at lunch, it wasn't pretty. My friend spoke truth. Some of it hurt. But it was what I needed to hear. I cried at the table. I cried in the bathroom of the restaurant. I cried while she prayed. All that crying brought me to a place I needed to be. Letting go of plan B so I could embrace God's plan A.
I don't know about you - but I said I was stepping out in faith and in some ways I did. But I also held on to plan B. Plan B was other ways to provide for myself financially instead of trusting God to help me build my business. Plan B was playing it safe and doing the things I had always done and expecting that to build my business.
That day at lunch, I was challenged to trust that God would provide as I was choosing to surrender to Him. My answer wasn't found in my back up plan for income. My answer was found in Him.
Finding Our Calling involves a little risk
Shortly after my lunch that day, I had signed up for a free webinar with a business coach. She was telling the story of her own business. She started slow. And struggled. Until she did one thing that changed it all.
She took a risk. Started something new. And the dynamic of her business changed. As I listened to her story, I realized one thing. While I had started out with risk. I left my job without another one. I started a business without knowing what I was doing.
But somewhere along the way, I had started playing it safe. I had focused on things I had always been doing. I wasn't innovating. I wasn't risking anything. I was hoping somehow God would make my calling easy.
You don't need to own a business to take a risk. Maybe your risk is walking down the street to meet that new neighbor. Taking the initiative to start a friendship. Choosing to be honest with your heart and allow someone else to see you - vulnerability and all.
The simple fact is that our calling is a mix of our experience, our gifts and the way God wants to work our lives. Our callings are hard because we need to be in a place where God is our only answer to follow them. I've realized that all around me women were fulfilling their callings in hard places. In difficult circumstances. In challenging relationships. In places where it wasn't easy, but it was good.
As you and I step out in One Foot Faith, we need to face risk and possibly failure. We need to be willing to learn from risking and failure instead of always trying to do it right the first time. We may need to face challenges we never expected. Our journey may feel like we're climbing a mountain when we signed up for a downhill path.
Here's the good news: You are not your calling. And God, in his wisdom, allows a winding path so we can grow and become more like Him as we serve His kingdom. As for me, I don't have it all figured out yet. I'm still working on what needs to change. But somewhere in the midst of it all, I'm learning to embrace this journey- twists and turns and all.
I would love to hear from you. Where is God calling you to trust Him where your path is not easy but He is good? Simply comment here. I'd love to pray for you on your own journey.